Expectations.

Told you I'd update more frequently(sorta). The holidays just started for me and it's already getting monotonous. Harsh, eh? Monotonous. Kinda reminds me of Christmas.


Do you celebrate Christmas? Most of you do, right? Or the holidays - preferably in my case (a long a break after exams). Before the Christmas and the exams, of course, there is the build up for the festivities. And towards the end, the build up is so great, the expectations for something to follow and continue the flow of mass euphoria pretty much fails.

As an example, before Christmas, in shopping malls, Christmas songs play, shop assistants put on them red santa caps. With little or no exception to a Christmas tree inviting you into their shop. And an even greater Christmas tree in the concourse area (like that one in Pavilion last year, and that was huge, lol).


You feel all that rubbing off you and get caught in the spur of all the festivities and expect something great to follow. When Christmas comes, you expect too much and get disappointed in the end. Pretty much like the holidays, after the exams, everything you wanted to do just seems so un-enjoyable.

So, that's the story of expectation. It also happens during the exams when you've put your heart into the paper and expect it to bear results but it doesn't. To me, this negative point of view on expectations pretty much seems like emotional suicide.


Generally speaking, don't expect too much outta anything in life. Be confident with your words/judgement but don't expect a lot. Most of the time, input ≠ output. So, keep that in close proximity and you'll be fine.

Hey, you win some, you lose some. You can't win 'em all, you know? If you keep winning, then what's the point of life anyway? With no challenges and all.

Close yet really really far,
ColiNgeow.

You, Me? Her.

Im'ma back! How are you guys? I'm kinda glad my exam's over but I'm not sure how I faired. It could be a matter of not believing in myself but everyone has their flaws =P. I'm not quite sure but I think my batch finished extra early in comparison to the other schools. On another note, I was talking to my dad about the job prospects of my degree and he reinforced what he said time and time again.

And I quote (well, not really, but it's somewhere along those lines) "It really doesn't matter what degree you have under your belt, it's if you're bright or not. Did you know that IBM employs any university graduate? It's because after you graduate from the university you tend to develop logical thinking capabilities". and I replied "uh. ok". So I guess I'll just start using my brain more instead of just mugging for exams, aye? ; )


People, are in fact (from a scientific point of view), evolved animals. Keep that in mind. But over time, humans evolved into a system that's governed by a higher level of intelligence. All in all, humans introduce intelligence in their daily lives, solving problems, making their lives easier. We know what we want in life (at times) so that we can obtain it to improve our quality of life. Yes, yes, it sounds very selfish and/or scientific, moreover, inorganic.

But it's true, it's self-preservation, in a sense, i guess. Humans want the best of all worlds - if it is possible, someone would do it. And please, don't give me bullcrap that you're not greedy and/or selfish. When you're playing mahjong and you can "sek" with a possibility of a "pao", you go ahead and wait for "pao" right? And after that some else wins. Sorta like the story bout that greedy dog that wanted the bone of his reflection in a lake, lol.
*"Sek" means to win the game. "Pao" means to win the game with max. points and therefore, more payout.


That's just an example lah. Again, everything in life contradicts. This sorta concept occurs almost instantaneously (it would be faster if I didn't just wake up, lol) in friendship. 2 friends, A and B have gotten to know each other and friend A is a fairly better friend to B than B is to A. Get it? A treats B better la. B treats A not so good la, lol. Then with acquired intelligence, wouldn't A reason out that he would want a better companion and friend? Ditch B! Well, yeah, it wouldn't happen like that.

NOT naturally, at least. The whole idea of emotions and principles come into the picture. Humanity and whatnot. Intriguing. There are also boyfriend & girlfriend kinda situations where they are together and even if one partner is not treating the other party as such, they wouldn't just end it right? I mean, s/he, is assumed not to be a dumbass or a moron or both. They wouldn't leave each other for that SOLE reason. Contradictions a-hoy.


So what IS the ultimate answer? It lies somewhere in between emotional intelligence quotient(EQ) and the normal everyday intelligence quotient(IQ). It's how you put, organize and mix-match your uncertainties. THINK without being influenced by emotions, friends and examples of situations you're in TOO MUCH. Hope you've enjoyed my post and stay tuned. I'm going to try to make these posts more frequent. Good luck and au revoir!

"Like air guitars in muscle cars with perfect teeth, the way we are,"
ColiNgeow.

Principles.

Howdy, readers. How've you guys been? Haven't blogged in awhile now. I'm just barely finding time to blog nowadays. Remember as a kid, or even now, receiving a lecture for something you did wrong? Okay, lemme rephrase that. Ever gotten a lecture or a scolding for mistakes that you thought were minuscule? And the end of the conversation would be "It's a matter of principle! It doesn't matter if it's 15 minutes or 50 minutes. You are still late!"


So, yeah. Like, whatever right? Hold your horses. Back to the conversation, I'm just saying that hypothetically lah, being 15minutes late is quite bad. So you march off swearing and cursing reasoning with yourself and wondering what you did wrong for stealing an eraser - which was even unintentional.

It's the matter of principle!! So, whatever. If all these lessons in life teach you about not doing anything bad due to principle, what do you do once you've committed to something bad? Do you keep on going committing that "sin"(exaggerating btw) since you've already broken that principle? OR are there another set of principles to follow? Since you've already stolen a pen, why not go for 2 pens? WHY not a whole stationary set? What's a stationary set to a whole bookshop with a 5-digit income? It wouldn't hurt, yes?no?


Another aspect of it, is the magnitude of the crime. Magnitude? Principle? If you stole a car, you'd of course be involving yourself in a bigger heist than if you were to steal a pencil case. Does the concept of principle fall? Does it not? Or is the principle of committing a crime on a larger scale a new set of principles altogether? Everything starts to contradict now and again.

Of course, in the court of law, both apply, breaking of principles, even the very basic to the core. And, the magnitude as well. Is there a case where only principle is involved? or only the sole influence of magnitude? Mmm, I'd suggest no. It's your call, actually. Logic, taken into account, you have to figure out what you had done wrong and apply if it was the magnitude and principle. And it is very common that it involves both. Even if they say it's the principle, it's the magnitude as well.


And logical thinking needs a lot of brainpower, I might add, omfg. Haha. At the end of the day, I guess life tends to be like that, blurring lines of facts from textbooks forming a fat,gray,bland line of all lessons of life. Hope you've enjoyed the post. Somehow I'm losing my ideas and my blogging content, what do you guys think? Maybe i'm just tired, lol.

Drop-dead gorgeous with a sparkling personality,
ColiNgeow.

Here's an excerpt, for you colingeow.blogspot.com readers, I'm an Aries. Yes, the ram, lol.

ARIES - The Daredevil

Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (Easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.

Interesting. =)

Overdue.

Hi Homo sapiens. No "philosophical" view on life today. I've had time to think of a few things that are rather intriguing but I'd rather update you guys with things I've been doing for the past semester, or the past few weeks. Well, semester 1 just ended last Friday and the uni seems quiet as ever. Although if you do ever come late to uni, the seats in the library are are common as a parking spot in front of ac on Saturday nights or when them Taylor's/Inti/Metro students go to school, lol. Yes, it gets THAT rare.

The end of the 1st semester brings change and reminds different people of different things. It's another semester till everyone starts specializing and starts majoring. Every other person in my course is doing Biotech and I don't know anyone taking my major as yet. I don't know lah. People say a Bachelor of Science won't really guarantee you a job, but wtf lah. Maybe I'll just switch to engineering. Well, that's a different matter for a different day, lol.

LiYing, if you're reading this, this sign is from Strawberry Fields, lol.

aaand, everyone's finals is coming, that's why the library is always packed with people. Sometimes, for all the wrong reasons, haha. People tend to be on Facebook or Friendster or Dota when they're supposed to be studying. But, it's okayla, they need breaks once in awhile, right? Haha, sluts. I've got my Bio paper on the 9th and Stats on the 10th. The last paper, Chem on 16th. Then it's waiting till the new semester opens to meet new people! Well, not really but, whatever la, right? lol

New bunch of freshies coming in, so our batch won't really be the freshies anymore. We'll be in our sophomore semester haha, such a thing? I've made a bunch of friends, most of which, are asian haha. More precisely put, ORIENTALS. haha. Great people I've learn to mix with and appreciate. There are friendly people in my course but if you were to ask me their names, you'd be asking the wrong person, LOL. I'm just very bad with names. AND if you're name is chinese like uh, DongXyiangFr'ng or smth, then I'm sorry but I've gotta meet you at least 5 times, lol.

Behold my Totem Pole.

My finals are coming up and I've not really been studying. There's a strong relationship between me and the tendency of f*cking up my finals. I just don't know why. I don't want the hassle of the exams and having to prepare for it. It can get annoying. When the going gets tough, you just need some "divine inspiration". I GOT IT! Here, check it out.

haha, lame, I know.

P.S The transferring thing to Engineering was a whole load of bullcrap. HAHA. Imho, I wouldn't want my life revolving around numbers. Catch you guys later!

You're drop-dead gorgeous,
ColiNgeow.